Life problem is done. And what about best friend problem?

I don't know why. But i really miss you. Miss talking with you everyday at school. And shares secret with you. From the first of this year, you rare talking to me like seriously. Is that what you mean by best friend forever? You said, you promise I am your best friend. But you see.. You lied and it kills me. I'm envy when i see you with her.. talking happily, walk together. and like never ever split up. Apa guna kau cakap saya ni jugalah harapan kau? Apa guna janji kau? Apa guna saya nangis untuk kau dulu? Dan.. Kenapa saya maafkan kau ah? Kenapa saya ceria macam budak yg dapat ice-cream time saya okay suda sama kau ah? Dan sekarang, apa bah balasan kau ni? Best friend forever ka macam ni? No way la saya rasa. Kau anggap sya mcm tunggul kayu saja oh skrng! Takkan sya yg duluan mesti mau layan kau? Punyalah hebat gaya kau sekarang. Tidak pandai faham. Kau cuma poke dia sebab mau minta kawan makan time rehat awal? Alasan lah kau. Jan kau kasih budu sya lagi bah. Apa bah perfect sangat BEST FRIEND kau skrng tu? Bagus lah tu. Harap kamu kawan selamanya la kan. Kenapa ah sungguh banyak cabaran dalam hidup sya. biarlah, hanya Tuhan saja bahh tahuu ;) And sya mau kau tau, sy betul betul anggap kau adik bradik dulu. kau pun tau. kita masih kawan tapi kita bukan kawan rapat lagi. tapi kau masih ingat ka time kita jalan sma dorang R&M p pantai. lepas tu, kita men tulis tulis d pasir. apa kau bilang? best friend forever? tolonglah. cukuplaa sya kecewa sma kau. sma janji kau. tidak paa laa. tu ja sya maw post. baaa. hahaha! xD

GONNA RUUUUUNNN, RUNNN FAARR AWAYYY XD

day by day, my day is getting worst. come on, if this was the prove that this is the end of the world.. just let me die first. i'm tired to tried everything!!!! i mean, why cant i really make my brothers and teachers proud?  WHY ? I DID TRY ! who says i'm not ? i do tell myself everyday 'why am i stupid enough?' its okay, its alright :) want me to learn the HARD LIFE, huh? want me to be so INDEPENDENT? am i dog? bro, are you treating me like a dog? its okay, since you throw the glass to me, i didn't even even even more even saw you as my bro again but still, i will love you all forever. if i die and you guys don't know that ;') just don't forget to pray always, i'm sorry if i put you guys in the hard life :') good night and sweet dream <3

9 April. i keep loving you more! ;)

So here it goes. I wake up early morning and prepare to go school. by myself using bus. but.. suddenly i changed my mind, i don't wanna go. i wanna see him so badly, and i take extra clothes and put inside my bag and i just bring one text book and holding it. when i go out the house, i call him many times until he pick up and i said , we cant meet near my house cos there's my bro and yet,  i said , I can go to Papar just to see him. when i reached at terminal. i take the bus but its still not fulled with persons and i go changed my clothes at toilet. and when i go back into the bus, i sit on my place back and got this one boy, wow. he looks kinda cute but i just ignore. and when the bus started to go, i just sit and trying to sleep but i cant.. and then wanna pay for the bus already. i ask the person beside me, that i said that he was cute. he said it cost rm5. wow-..- expensive. and after 1 one minute, he ask me and we started to talk and talk , we laugh. haha wow. cool. and at last, reached papar terminal. go down and saw my boyfriend! i miss him, sit beside him and talk to him. and then blah blah blah blah blah blah blah sweet moment <3 secret. HAHA. i love him so much. and then after that, we go walking around Papar, take some picture for our memories, sit on the bench and talking.. holding hands on the street..i even trying to stole kissing him in the bus today :p haha he's cute. i keep loving him more :) and when its 1pm we sit at terminal waiting for the bus.. and i put my head on his shoulder trying to sleep but i cant cos he keep wake me up -..- cruel, isn't it? haha then he check my bag and i keep asking why are he checking and he wanna make sure if there's a cond*** inside it. and i was like. what!? haha and then he take out a piece paper from my bag that got his name on it.. and we use that paper wrote our chinese name, i love you, signature, full name. and he ask me to keep it as our memories :) i love you :) 

makin sweet eh kau? waaa haha. - 16 March

my kiro? :) hey there, my kiro. my fan <3 HAHA. i love you. waaa texting with you tonight was so sweet , great, and fun:) cant believe we're talking about something special, its like magic D: and watching ghost movie with my bro. while texting and chatting with Daeran using phone. Daeran was a sweet and cool guy. and ok back to my kiro. i miss him so much. gilaaa eh, saya lambat reply text dia 4 or 5 minute gitu ka. then dia tertidur sudaa. alaaa, gara gara fikir brabis pa mau reply chat c Daeran ni bahhh:3 haha biarlahhh. happy go lucky ja. and and, time sya tingu hantu hantu ma bro sya, punya syok. da juga sya tariak tariak oh. bro sya pun takajut :) hahaha k sampai sini jaaa xD 

YOU :(

so, I guess i should really stop talking about you even yesterday at school what you did makes me keep falling for you more. Its for my own good either. And may God bless your relationship with her. I hope you guys would last long. Even this would make me take more times to forgetting our past , i would try my best because I promise to my best friend that I'll stop loving you. Well, its not easy to find someone like you and, so there's no one like you out there. And I just love your smile. 

Like its his birthday.

Got adventure today at Wetland again. At school, Deidre said that its his birthday and i was like. OMG. wasn't it on March? and what ever he'll get something like its gonna be his first. Why cant i over him? I said to deidre that i wanted to give up and she says NO. Why? Tell me why? And guess what? She says , one day you'll like him again and you wont give up. Yeah, the more i wanted to stop liking him , the more i fall for him. PLEASE BRO. I wanna change school and this is not the only reason why i want to change. You ask me to cos the school is far away from home. Anyway, today at Wetland its cool. Saya balik balik kasih kena c Kevin ;) sitting with Claireen and Windy. yeah they were there too , their driver was Winston ;) today the bad life totally begins. How can i stop? how can i move on? how can i stop acting like i care when i saw you with her? its hurt, totally. but never mind its not like i'm going to break with my boyfriend just because wanted to be loyal waiting for you. No. You could have been, you should have been, you're not and you will never be. I miss you, i mean i miss when we're playing in primary school, talking in primary school. Please heart, please i wanted to stop. Please don't wasting your time. Oh Lord, i beg you. 

i shouldn't fall for you. 

19 February 2012

the best adventure of my life at Wetland Forest ;) 

Today morning i was on rushing for adventure at Wetland. I tried my best to wake my brother to send me up to school. In the car my brother accidentally make me mad and didn't started to drive. I was in panic and thinking that when i reach there, others are already went to the Wetland for adventure but thank god , when i reach to the school I saw sharrona, ivy , quik , deidre, kevin:) , and others. HAHA! Even teacher Yazid. I saw him standing there holding his umbrella. Wow. Its cute :P And at last, the bus came and we go inside. The bus was so ugly and i said that to my friend. HAHA its funny anyway but its cool it got radio ;) and then when we reach at Wetland. Before we go in, I saw the cats inside there and i was like wtf and feels like wanna screaming , well i trauma on cats and Sharrona was like calling the cat to make me afraid-..- and then the announcement started. I was just laughing around, talking around and others are listening. Oh yeah, some of them are from other schools ;) Its gonna be a competition finding a bird and describe it :D Anyway, I keep saying i'm hungry. and ohhh breakfast! Nasi Lemak. oh great. sikit saja saya makan bukan habis-..- HAHA. at last the adventure begins ;)
Teacher Yazid was freedom and when we was on our way to start the adventure, teacher Yazid take care of us and leave the others group-..- well, i'm on the group 4 with Ivy,Sharrona,Quik and me ;) hahaha. its great. Taking picture with the greatest adventure people and i guess many more. And wow, when i was Teacher Yazid walking and my friends, we were about to across the dirty mud. and i said ' Eee, sya takut kasut sya kotorrr owww! ' with a cute voice. hahaha how dumb and then teacher Yazid ask me to hold his umbrella and start walking? I 'm not sure what he's talking about. He's nice. When i was hot, we share umbrella. Wow, i am so gonna respect this teacher but why am i saw him just as friends? This is soooooo the best adventure and this is what it feels like. Teacher Yazid and I almost lost when we walk slowly on the dirty mud and my friends just walking like really faster. At least, we all get fun and when ah ha ! we reached at observation tower. HAHA. c Ivy mati mati mau bawa kami p sana. last last, baru ja dia naik satu tingkat and then kami sudah d paling atas but before that Teacher Yazid and I again d tingkat dua terus saya minta ambil gambar. apa, malu? tidakk laaa. HAHA. And then i look down 'Ivy ! naik la baaa ! penakuutt ! ' then ivy said ' tidak mau baaa. kau ka? sya bulih mati oh ! ' what a fool. hahaha. and then, we returned from the forest. I go to the office because tapak tangan sya tercucuk kayu. hahaha kilii. syok juga d office sya dapat duduk , kuat gila aircon diaaa ;) anyway, blahh. next saturday got adventure again but its only ceramahh laa. haih. and here's the picture taken by my friends and teacher. YA. muka sayaa saja yang ada. HAHA.

after done with breakfast! hahaha. drink tea <3 taken by Grace;) 

with the greatest adventure? hahaha taken by Quik ;) 

cari burung ! HAHAHAHA taken by Ivy ;) 

at observation tower. taken by cikgu Yazid. hahahaha 

dakat air? hahaha taken by quik again ;)

returned to school ! penaaaat gila ! HAHAHA sendiri capture :p