GONNA RUUUUUNNN, RUNNN FAARR AWAYYY XD

day by day, my day is getting worst. come on, if this was the prove that this is the end of the world.. just let me die first. i'm tired to tried everything!!!! i mean, why cant i really make my brothers and teachers proud?  WHY ? I DID TRY ! who says i'm not ? i do tell myself everyday 'why am i stupid enough?' its okay, its alright :) want me to learn the HARD LIFE, huh? want me to be so INDEPENDENT? am i dog? bro, are you treating me like a dog? its okay, since you throw the glass to me, i didn't even even even more even saw you as my bro again but still, i will love you all forever. if i die and you guys don't know that ;') just don't forget to pray always, i'm sorry if i put you guys in the hard life :') good night and sweet dream <3

9 April. i keep loving you more! ;)

So here it goes. I wake up early morning and prepare to go school. by myself using bus. but.. suddenly i changed my mind, i don't wanna go. i wanna see him so badly, and i take extra clothes and put inside my bag and i just bring one text book and holding it. when i go out the house, i call him many times until he pick up and i said , we cant meet near my house cos there's my bro and yet,  i said , I can go to Papar just to see him. when i reached at terminal. i take the bus but its still not fulled with persons and i go changed my clothes at toilet. and when i go back into the bus, i sit on my place back and got this one boy, wow. he looks kinda cute but i just ignore. and when the bus started to go, i just sit and trying to sleep but i cant.. and then wanna pay for the bus already. i ask the person beside me, that i said that he was cute. he said it cost rm5. wow-..- expensive. and after 1 one minute, he ask me and we started to talk and talk , we laugh. haha wow. cool. and at last, reached papar terminal. go down and saw my boyfriend! i miss him, sit beside him and talk to him. and then blah blah blah blah blah blah blah sweet moment <3 secret. HAHA. i love him so much. and then after that, we go walking around Papar, take some picture for our memories, sit on the bench and talking.. holding hands on the street..i even trying to stole kissing him in the bus today :p haha he's cute. i keep loving him more :) and when its 1pm we sit at terminal waiting for the bus.. and i put my head on his shoulder trying to sleep but i cant cos he keep wake me up -..- cruel, isn't it? haha then he check my bag and i keep asking why are he checking and he wanna make sure if there's a cond*** inside it. and i was like. what!? haha and then he take out a piece paper from my bag that got his name on it.. and we use that paper wrote our chinese name, i love you, signature, full name. and he ask me to keep it as our memories :) i love you :)