Like its his birthday.

Got adventure today at Wetland again. At school, Deidre said that its his birthday and i was like. OMG. wasn't it on March? and what ever he'll get something like its gonna be his first. Why cant i over him? I said to deidre that i wanted to give up and she says NO. Why? Tell me why? And guess what? She says , one day you'll like him again and you wont give up. Yeah, the more i wanted to stop liking him , the more i fall for him. PLEASE BRO. I wanna change school and this is not the only reason why i want to change. You ask me to cos the school is far away from home. Anyway, today at Wetland its cool. Saya balik balik kasih kena c Kevin ;) sitting with Claireen and Windy. yeah they were there too , their driver was Winston ;) today the bad life totally begins. How can i stop? how can i move on? how can i stop acting like i care when i saw you with her? its hurt, totally. but never mind its not like i'm going to break with my boyfriend just because wanted to be loyal waiting for you. No. You could have been, you should have been, you're not and you will never be. I miss you, i mean i miss when we're playing in primary school, talking in primary school. Please heart, please i wanted to stop. Please don't wasting your time. Oh Lord, i beg you. 

i shouldn't fall for you. 

19 February 2012

the best adventure of my life at Wetland Forest ;) 

Today morning i was on rushing for adventure at Wetland. I tried my best to wake my brother to send me up to school. In the car my brother accidentally make me mad and didn't started to drive. I was in panic and thinking that when i reach there, others are already went to the Wetland for adventure but thank god , when i reach to the school I saw sharrona, ivy , quik , deidre, kevin:) , and others. HAHA! Even teacher Yazid. I saw him standing there holding his umbrella. Wow. Its cute :P And at last, the bus came and we go inside. The bus was so ugly and i said that to my friend. HAHA its funny anyway but its cool it got radio ;) and then when we reach at Wetland. Before we go in, I saw the cats inside there and i was like wtf and feels like wanna screaming , well i trauma on cats and Sharrona was like calling the cat to make me afraid-..- and then the announcement started. I was just laughing around, talking around and others are listening. Oh yeah, some of them are from other schools ;) Its gonna be a competition finding a bird and describe it :D Anyway, I keep saying i'm hungry. and ohhh breakfast! Nasi Lemak. oh great. sikit saja saya makan bukan habis-..- HAHA. at last the adventure begins ;)
Teacher Yazid was freedom and when we was on our way to start the adventure, teacher Yazid take care of us and leave the others group-..- well, i'm on the group 4 with Ivy,Sharrona,Quik and me ;) hahaha. its great. Taking picture with the greatest adventure people and i guess many more. And wow, when i was Teacher Yazid walking and my friends, we were about to across the dirty mud. and i said ' Eee, sya takut kasut sya kotorrr owww! ' with a cute voice. hahaha how dumb and then teacher Yazid ask me to hold his umbrella and start walking? I 'm not sure what he's talking about. He's nice. When i was hot, we share umbrella. Wow, i am so gonna respect this teacher but why am i saw him just as friends? This is soooooo the best adventure and this is what it feels like. Teacher Yazid and I almost lost when we walk slowly on the dirty mud and my friends just walking like really faster. At least, we all get fun and when ah ha ! we reached at observation tower. HAHA. c Ivy mati mati mau bawa kami p sana. last last, baru ja dia naik satu tingkat and then kami sudah d paling atas but before that Teacher Yazid and I again d tingkat dua terus saya minta ambil gambar. apa, malu? tidakk laaa. HAHA. And then i look down 'Ivy ! naik la baaa ! penakuutt ! ' then ivy said ' tidak mau baaa. kau ka? sya bulih mati oh ! ' what a fool. hahaha. and then, we returned from the forest. I go to the office because tapak tangan sya tercucuk kayu. hahaha kilii. syok juga d office sya dapat duduk , kuat gila aircon diaaa ;) anyway, blahh. next saturday got adventure again but its only ceramahh laa. haih. and here's the picture taken by my friends and teacher. YA. muka sayaa saja yang ada. HAHA.

after done with breakfast! hahaha. drink tea <3 taken by Grace;) 

with the greatest adventure? hahaha taken by Quik ;) 

cari burung ! HAHAHAHA taken by Ivy ;) 

at observation tower. taken by cikgu Yazid. hahahaha 

dakat air? hahaha taken by quik again ;)

returned to school ! penaaaat gila ! HAHAHA sendiri capture :p

Real friends? I don't know what that means anymore..

So real friends? why didn't you tell me? I'm regret to trust you so much and broke my heart just like the window been throw by a chair and broken. Fuck you. I shouldn't say you like that but you make me like this... So that is why you.. Oh, its okay. I just need help to carry on but not from you,bitch. yeah,bitch. Wasting my time waiting for that miracle come and end up with a shit feeling and you get the miracle. I mean whats so special about you? Yes,you pretty but i think you're just a bitch that wants all of the cute boys. nahh, i'm not jealous. well, this is my blog. so what? I'm regret knowing you. You just making up all those story.. i hate you. you better change your shit attitude.

kawan? tambirang la.

Once they get wrong and they'll think they're right. I told you i'm not talking about her and i was talking about other girl. And bukan saya tidak puas hati sama dia pun. Salah faham bah kau ni. Adakah saya mahu tidak puas hati sama dia cause dia poke c B kunun? Bukan pasal dia bah saya cakap. Haih shit laaaa. enough is enough la. kalau kau mau tahu la kan, KAU BAAAAA. Naaa, KAUUUU. Memang bagus la kalau kau terbaca ni blog. memang praise the lord. A thousand years saya suka dia, oh WAIT WAIT. kau sama dia suruh saya stop suka dia. BAH, I WILL TRY AND TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY sampailahh saya TRYYY LAGI OVER AND OVER AGAAAAIN. macam senang mahu kasih lupa dia. bagus saya pindah la dari sekolah tu. memang sial la begini. fed up sudah saya. layan pun macam angin oh. bagus lagi kawan kau satu tu. PANDAI MELAYAN MA daripada kau. kenapa? just because i got boyfriend terus saya mati mati happy inside laaa? begitu ka kau fikir? apa punya otak oh. k la. suda la saya cakap pasal kau dan dia. actually bukan pasal claireen la.


anywayy, awww ! so great sit with Tan Vui Seng. hahaha dating kunun kami :p paaluuuui. ketawa berabis, ajar dia kunun buat correction. blahhh blahh tulis tulis meja dia, drawer diaa. terus after school stay with Claireen,May and Jenn. syok gila stayyy ;) haha. 

A thousand years.

Awesome sharing topic with Marjorie, Roseanne and teacher at counseling. Its totally great. Jor and Rose even help me to tell the teacher about my love life. Well.. about the person that i've been like for 8 years half? Teacher says that, i shouldn't force him to love me and ask me to find other. Haha and i was like, its okay teacher, i already got a boyfriend. and he's like what? and you still want him? and so yeah, i said. even i tell him, even if i got one, sometimes i like him. i thought i stopped already. And Jor and Rose ask me to stopped loving him. Well, they ever ask him either why he doesn't like me and he said i'm taller than him and my attitude :( he said that i'm strict. and i was like, wow? Really? i thought i was kind. Joke. Hmm, its alright. Well tomorrow is Valentines Day. I guess nothing special. Not gonna have the chance to meet my boyfriend either. No money, No out,bebeh. Chaw <3 

How long can i wait for you?

She doesn't suit you. And you doesn't suit her. Come on, i have been liking you for almost like 8 years? That girl sitting beside you must be a bitch. Well, the way she's acting SHE WANTS YOU. Oh, i see you like her? Congratulations. Well, you know what? After my friends tell me that when Marjorie is trying to talking to you and the bitch beside you is trying to disturbing you like calling your name and you look at her. Cant you give me a chance? I like you. I want you since primary school. Please tell me what you want me to be or I'm too ugly for you or fat. The way to stop liking you.. for me is only one way. It is to change school. I never thought that i keep loving you this fucking more. It hurt me so bad. We same class but we're like strangers! Well its okay, after school. Its a little perfect imperfect. I saw you run, i saw you laughing, i even saw you catching me looking at you. Oh damn. And saw Trevor today after school, it makes my day. It gives me energy to run. Joke. Its just me. Myself. I got energy by myself. A great conservation too with Jennifer and Windy ;) talking about friends and teacher. And lastly, a great conservation with Berwyn too! ;) well, i'm gonna take a bath then take dinner early, then crying with a thousand years music on.